lost in reality
Finally!
It seems to have taken an age, but at last, I have had my first covid vac shot!
With the exception of my kids I am literally the last person I know to get the damn thing.
An hour in and I’m feeling fine, let’s see what tomorrow brings.
Peace to all
S-
Ok, writing this cos I just saw an advert for the movie ‘Coming to America 2’.
I’m not saying that’s a bad thing, I’m not saying it’s a good thing, but what Seeing that ad instantly did for me was pop a mental image in my head of a board room somewhere in Hollywood full of executives and creatives all curled up on the floor rocking backwards and forwards in the fetal position constantly murmuring “it’s the 1980s…it’s the 1980s”.
I get it, 2020 was rough and 2021 is still rough, but pretending the last 40 years didn’t happen isn’t the answer. Take a deep breath, draw back the curtains, and prepare for the sh*t storm that will be the public reaction to Kong vs Godzilla.
– S
Ok, this should be good, Star Trek: Below Decks, an animated look at a side of federation life we don’t get to see in the live action shows….
Episode one… ok seems a bit “Final Space-y” but that’s fine, Final Space is a great show…ending not too bad, characters a bit off but that’s ok for a first show…
Episode two….getting a little grating….overly forced situations….stuff that would make NO sense in the previous live action shows…..but it’s fine, new show after all….added a side of Rick and Morty styling to the off brand Final Space main course for some reason but I can still swallow it, gagging slightly but I can do it….
Episode three…oh god kill me….no,no wait, that was just the “fun” sketchy bit before the credits, the actual episode willll beeeee…..f*ck
Well the new series of Final Space is out later this year.
So…
Yeah….
Happy new year to every one, I’m taking bets on 2021, I’m thinking meteor strike or zombie apocalypse.
I’m writing this at 6am, without hangover, after a full nights sleep.
Why?
Check the title.
I’m part way through 3 proper entries, but as I originally stated when I started this blog, I’m not going to pump stuff out for the sake of hits. Entries will be done when they are done.
Peace and hope for 2021
I’m still freaking out during lockdown, started a number of posts but not finished them.
I thought, ok let’s try a post that has zero impact on my world or anyone else’s.
Sort of blog fluff therapy, while still letting me sharpen my claws.
So our subject for today class is Community the TV series: An under appreciated masterpiece brought down by “The Man” or an ok light comedy that fell to pieces when ego and greed got n the way.
My introduction to Community initially was as a thumbnail on Netflix that just didn’t appeal. Netflix pushed and pushed but nothing it showed me caught my eye.
Finally a Google news item popped up for me with a headline along the lines of “Community fan debate continues on Netflix”. I read the article and started getting interested, turns out it was a series created by Dan Harmon (creator of Rick and Morty), it not only brought a lot of talented people together but also relaunched at least one career (Chevy Chase). The fevered fans where posting #sixseasonsandamovie and all was great until…Crash, half the cast leaves and Dan Harmon gets fired for being a creepy stalker! But still the fans root for it, it’s cancelled,then it’s back , then it’s cancelled again, then it’s back again. Oh the drama!! (Ok that’s mostly sarcasm but if I went into all the stuff that happened around the recording of this show and all the theories put forward after it then I’d be writing a book not a blog)
So I thought fine, lets watch some.
Aaannnnnd, meh…
It’s ok.
Yes there are some great comedy moments and some great emotional ones too.
And yes, the series does start falling apart when it loses half of its comedy duo mid point of season five (this is a big trigger for the über fans), but doesn’t that show there wasn’t that much to the program in the first place?
Community is fine, but that’s all it is, just fine. Does it deserve #sixseasonsandamovie ? No
Does “The adventures of Abed and Troy” deserve a movie, yes.
Not sure what I’m talking about? Go watch Community on Netflix.
-S
England returns to lockdown on November 5th until December 2nd.
We’ve done this before, no one ran out of toilet paper, or bread or milk, so WHY THE F*CK is every one out today buying a years supply of everything!
Have we truly learned nothing!
Well when I watch people binge buy while not wearing masks and failing to social distance from other shoppers and shop assistants, who are also not wearing masks, I can say yes, it is true, we have learned nothing…
“But these are just a few dingbats, a handful of casual morons spoiling it for everyone else” I hear you cry.
Then why is every street crammed with traffic? Cars have been bumper to bumper for the last twelve hours!!!
The fifteen minute trip to get my boys home from school today took an hour and a half!
Some times I just give up.
Tomorrow I will celibate November 5th with my children in the traditional manner, lockdown or no, by watching V for Vendetta (or “What if Trump had been British ” as it is also known)
-S
So I’m sitting in an arm chair, watching Ready Player One, surrounded by a thousand jobs that need to be done (including my post about schizophrenia and reality) and just feeling crappy…
Why?
Why the despondency?
The up coming lockdown? Certainly doesn’t help, but it should be ok.
The huge amount of work that goes into putting a new home together by yourself? It’s not fun, but I’ve done it before, no biggie.
The elections over in the USA? Potentially scary stuff but whatever happens our world will keep turning.
So what then?
Well before I answer myself I want to make a few statements about this blog:
It’s not here to make advertising revenue, I’ve actually paid real cash to reduce/remove advertising.
It’s not a one trick pony, this isn’t a mental health blog or a single dad blog. I’ll post about what’s important to me and what’s going on in my life and around me. Yes I am a single dad with what others would call mental health issues but that’s not all there is to me.
Lastly yes it would be fun if a ton of people started reading this blog, but that’s not going to happen, there are a lot of things I could do to boost views and likes but that would leave me thinking “does this post fit my blog profile?” and “should I write an article on this subject now it’s popular “. I just wanna write what I write and that’s that.
So why my despondency? Because my boys aren’t here…
I pick them up from school tomorrow but tonight they are with their mother.
Some people may think that’s understandable, not having your kids around can be a bummer, but for me it’s a bad sign.
From the days of my youth, back when I was baby sitter to my cousins, I became aware that a parents job was to help and guide their children to a point where the parent is no longer needed. To get them standing on there own two feet, dependant on no one.
I’ve watched parent after parent breakdown over their child leaving home, watched marriages crumble, watch lives collapse all because parents have become completely invested in their children staying children not stepping out into the world as young adults.
When I joyfully accepted parenthood I knew my task was to retain my own individuality while proudly donning the mantle of Father and guide my children along the path to joining me as a productive member of adult society!
(It might help to imagine some triumphant orchestral music rising in volume as you read that last bit)
Anyway…. I failed
I am finding it harder and harder to function outside of being Dad.
I have work to do, hobbies, friends but more and more these days I find it difficult to have any enthusiasm for life beyond parenthood!
This is not good.
I can’t be one of those parents!!
Now at this point I should start spouting words of wisdom on how I go back to balancing parenting and retaining an independent existence that can be motivated enough to get its arse out of the chair and do what needs to be done when the kids aren’t around. Right now I don’t have any.
I’ll keep you posted
-S
So first blog day I was going to leave things with just a simple starting entry, no padding for the sake of it, just blog stuff as it goes. Then I heard an original series Star Trek Tricorder.
So to be true to my original plan I’m blogging as it goes.
Lets talk about noises that aren’t there.
As far back as I can remember I’ve heard stuff that isn’t there, or rather that my brain has just decided to play to me. As a youngster this could be confusing (and no I never told anyone about it if you don’t count all those times I asked people if they could hear it too). I learned reasonably quickly that, for me at least, there was a noticeable difference between real and unreal noises and that I could easily tell the difference (as long as there was some real noise happening at the time).
To this day seemingly random noises will still play in my head from time to time and no they are not all Star Trek or even Sci-Fi based; yes sometimes they can be voices but usually if they are it’ll be someone just calling my name. Sometimes I will still have to tap something or make some other real world noise, like I did when I was a child, just to check.
Is there any up side to this? Well sort of, for me anyway, as I discovered in my late teens I could play back entire songs in my head as though I had a built in Mp3 player. The down side to it was the more I played music to myself the harder it was to tell real from unreal sounds so I try not to do it too often.
-S
Cos I’m freaking out!
I’ve moved into a new place just in time for a new lockdown to be announced, so that’s great.
Around 11pm last night, the first night my boys have been at their mothers since we moved in here, I realised that for the first time in their lives I can’t just swoop in and rescue my boys if something goes wrong (their mother and I just live too far apart now).
Yes there are a lot of ‘firsts’ and ‘news’ in this, why else do you think I’m writing the first entry of this new blog?
Now my boys are no longer little children, they are teens, so the chances of getting a “Dad come get me NOW!!!” phone call are pretty low….but they aren’t zero…
So after 34 hours without sleep I decided to start this blog, cos things we decide to do after an extended time without sleep are always a good idea!
– S
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